Life updated

It has been a while not posting anything here.

My life was so fed up with various of things for the last year. Not much time left for me to record and look back what I did. Also I have been tried avoid my deeper feelings since the death of my sister. She was struggling with lung cancer, and passed away last year. It cased a deep shadow in my mind because I was right at her side when she was gone, holding her hands. Watching life vanishing away as the numbers of pulse freq. and blood pressure.

It was a real shock for me, even though that we knew this is going to happen. The time I spent with my sister in the last four month I was with her, was like more than the total conversation we had in the last twenty years. To be honest, we were not that close when I was a child since she is 7 years older than me. We have different interests and perspective of life. I was in biological science and she was mostly in liberal arts sector. So there has been not much cross talks between us.

My sister knew she got lung cancer quite late, after she had a stoke nearly two years ago. But it was already in the final stage and the cancer cells had spread out to several organs, and did damages in her heads and bones. The gene therapy by the drug ‘Iressa’ succeeded for a short time, but it cannot stop further development of the cancer cells. And we finally lost her, forever.

It’s very difficult for me to put this, but it actually relieved some tension in my family with my sister’s death. She has always been the odd balls of my family, and she could not get along wih my father, I think since high school. She moved back to my parents’ house after the death of her husband. Years of switching jobs made my sister not having a stable income. Living with my parents might not be ideal, but was mostly the best solution at that time.

Anyway, it was tough for me to go through the last few months with my sister. So I have a mixed feeling for lung cancer. It reminds me of my sister.

Ironically, it is my turn now. Haunted or blessed, I am going to live with my lung cancer cells for the rest of my life.





Are you proud of your country?

I ran across an article on the internet recently. The article is about a statistics of proudness of the people for their country, and the result is is very interesting.

Original link: http://www.vox.com/2014/5/18/5724552/patriotism-pride-global-world

Look at the last country on the list – Taiwan. How sad it is.









最近網路上流傳了Apple的iPad Air廣告,引用「春風化雨」中所提Walt Whitman的詩句。覺得很不錯,記在這裡給自己。


O Me! O Life!

by Walt Whitman

Oh me! Oh life! of the questions of these recurring,

Of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill’d with the foolish,

Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?

Of eyes that vainly crave the light, of the objects mean, of the struggle ever renew’d,

Of the poor results of all, of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me,

Of the empty and useless years of the rest, with the rest me intertwined,

The question, O me! so sad, recurring—What good amid these, O me, O life?
That you are here—that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.


2013 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2013 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 3,600 times in 2013. If it were a cable car, it would take about 60 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.




London trip



The family trip to London was great. The kids love it. Well, the most impressed place to them was not the British Museum, the Natural History Museum, or the Buckingham Palace. It’s the Legoland that made the kids most happy.ImageImageImage


Nancy visited us at London.